I have for long been in a stage of denial ever since it happened. But now I have finally conceded that my iPod Nano does indeed have a busted battery. I face a dilemma now: Should I sell my iPod or should I have it repaired?

To sell it would mean having to face people's criticisms, explicit or otherwise. My Nano is a secondhand one, and secondhand things often provoke words like malfunction, untrustworthy, unreliable, and the like. They are not good words to hear.

Repairing the Nano, though, would mean having to risk money AGAIN. The Ate in Sta. Lucia, when I went there to ask about my iPod's future, said that she could have it repaired. She then brought me to a repair shop near her store and asked the Kuya there if he could give me a discount for the process. He told me 500 would do the job. I declined then. But now I wonder.. Could he really do it? I mean, I have just finished searching about iPod battery replacements, and now I realize that they can be done. Is the Kuya proficient enough in his area of specialization to fix my iPod? But then I think again. He would only perhaps check my iPod to see if it indeed is broken. I don't think he'll change the battery, not unless I buy a new, cheap one from CDR King or wherever. Or will he? Could the 500 pesos include the new battery?

I have 500 pesos but I am still unwilling to use it for my iPod. I am doubting. But I want to be able to use my Nano again. It was my birthday gift to myself, and having to live without it is painful, since I used my birthday money for it, money I rarely get from people.

What do I do.. What should I do.. This is really just frustrating. If only I were rich. But this entry in itself just goes to show that I am not. I mean, if I had money, I wouldn't be arguing with myself on whether to spend 500 pesos for repairs..

God. I wish this problem could be solved. Will be solved, rather.

More than all of the things I wrote, the reason why I want my iPod to be fixed is that I just don't want to be hit with the realization that I made a wrong choice. Again.

It just hurts to think about it. It does.