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Those who personally know me are aware that I plan to shift to a Journalism course this semester. Of course, i think i already put that here a while back, so please forgive me, at least it signifies that i really really want to pursue the course.

However, the problem is that i feel that my knowledge of current events is simply not what is expected of a Journalism major (or a hopeful one, in my case). I just read somewhere in the Net this evening courtesy of my mobile phone that i should learn to keep track of the events happening in the country and the world at large, by means of reading the newspaper religiously. That was what the article tried to say anyway. And so this brings me to my predicament. As much as i ardently want to be a Journalism major, i must first bring myself to find ways to be aware of the news every single day. I find this hard to accomplish since a) my father banned me from using the Internet since i was apparently the cause of our high electric bill (as i write this it is 3 in the morning, the whole house is deep in slumber), and 2) my family isn't a huge fan or buying newspapers. Hell, even i am not a fan. I mean, 20 pesos per day?! I'm sorry if i'm being this way to the broadsheet business (some kind of hopeful Journ major am i, huh?) but it's just that my family's financial situation isn't enough to cover purchasing papers everyday. I am limited to my mom's bringing the papers from her father's office, and that doesn't occur everyday. What about the t.v., you ask? Well... there's just something about the newspaper that appeals to me. Hmmm. CNN is my favorite cable news channel, but wait, we don't have cable.

Dilemmas, dilemmas..
I am trying to practice writing for the Journ shifting exam. I said trying. All i have up to now is the 5 W's and the H necessary to news writing: The what where when who why and the how. If i ever forget to commit these six things to my memory then that will be the indicator that i am indeed, a failure.

BUT

I am still not losing hope about being able to make the cut for shifting, no matter how daunting. I actually became scared yesterday, or was it two days ago, when i found out that my friend wasn't able to make the cut in shifting to his desired course. And that made me sad, partly because of my friend's failure, and also partly because i started thinking more about my chances of passing. I gave up on expecting a lot a long time ago. Every time i am sure i will achieve or get something i heavily desire, it ends up burning down before my eyes. All the hurt that caused me in the past taught me not to expect too much, but it also taught me that i shouldn't lose hope either. The future is always foggy, but i hope that when the fog clears, it leads me to a better place, and not directly to the edge of a cliff. Sigh. It's so hard to accept if i fail to get accepted to Journ again (the first attempt was the UPCAT exam in which it was my first choice; i ended up getting my second), but hey, you never know, right?

And frankly, i will not tolerate losing it again. My second chance is fast approaching, and by God, i will do my best to make sure i will get accepted now.

I just hope i don't screw up. I won't expect for much, for anything to happen the way i want for that matter, but i will NOT lose hope.

My life's motto is the Latin word 'Excelsior,' which means 'Ever upward.'

Here's to hoping
that i keep on
soaring.