I am hitting an all-time low with my laziness and i am not happy with it. I need to manage my time more, i need to work my ass off more, i need to appreciate lots of things and hard work more.

All of these depend on my initiative, yet sadly i don't feel any drive to get up and change myself. This is infuriating. I hope i find inspiration soon, and no, it does not necessarily have to be a person.

If i don't change this by the time i'm in my 20s, then i'm dead. So much for the person who wants to live an independent life in the future.

September's nearly ending and i haven't produced a single entry. Come to think of it, those times in which i've managed to write something about are just self-indulgent events, like what happened today, blah blah blah. It's not that i'm tired of writing about my life, it's just that i want some new shit to write about. If my life were more interesting then i'd be happier [who wouldn't be?]. Gah.