I am hitting an all-time low with my laziness and i am not happy with it. I need to manage my time more, i need to work my ass off more, i need to appreciate lots of things and hard work more.

All of these depend on my initiative, yet sadly i don't feel any drive to get up and change myself. This is infuriating. I hope i find inspiration soon, and no, it does not necessarily have to be a person.

If i don't change this by the time i'm in my 20s, then i'm dead. So much for the person who wants to live an independent life in the future.